As promised, here is a glimpse into my other world...
The one where stories beg to be written.
This is where I put the paint brush down and go even deeper.
My journey with the written word has been a complicated one.
For years I tried to suppress it, only to be awakened with a fever
that ended with five typed pages of pure emotion.
Many of you know, I completed a series of twelve short stories last year.
I sat on them for most of the year, wondering if I should continue.
The first draft was complete, but I knew I would have to go even deeper.
I would have to share them with an editor...
I did. I started. And then, I stopped.
It was too much. No more please.
They stayed in their folders.
But still, they called me.
They beckoned me to come back to them.
They knew before I did, that it was not over.
So, last December I enrolled in Sarah Selecky`s
online ecourse... and my friends...
it kind of busted me open again.
I realized that much of my writing was summarizing
over the major and minor events that needed to be shared...
I had not gone there...
I was still shuffling, stalling, ,denying, protecting...
These post-it notes are filled with wise words and tips from Sarah`s course
that are like little prayers and mantras for me as I write. This one:
“You have to feel it-the experience before you write it,”
has brought me to places I never wanted to go.
Where the words written by my hand make me weep from the inside out...
This is where I am when I`m not painting.
This is where I go...
This is where I have to go.
(even though some people will never understand why...)
Sarah encourages us to write all of our first drafts by hand.
Because writing words is an art form in itself
and when you are writing with your hand,
your are more closely connected to your heart...
My heart and my stories,
they are meant to be shared. I believe this now with my whole heart.
This is my biggest bad-ass dream...for reals...to share these stories, to set them free...
To share the journey.
I submitted my first story here.
And a second one to a place that could make
my biggest bad-ass dream one step closer...
But, I`m not ready to share this, yet...