Letter to Myself

COMING OUT THIS JUNE!!!!! 

YES! I'M ON THE COVER OF SEW SOMERSET!!!

What is it about-when I reach another goal, realize another dream, manifest another desire...what is it that makes the JOY slowly dissipate and seep into the ground?  What is it that makes me fill up with glee and happiness and then suddenly turn around to kick the dirt on the ground and wonder if I really deserve all this good stuff that is happening to me this year?  What is that makes me feel like I can achieve whatever I set my heart on and believe it with all my might, only to replace it with doubt and several omgs, you again, why are you getting so much love?

I'm learning a lot about myself this year as I continue to do belly flops and nose dives into the world of possibility and maybes and what ifs and why nots and you never know. I'm learning a lot as I face fear head on and plow through it one step at a time.

I'm learning that even when good things happen AMAZING things happen, I still question them, I still second guess them, I still wonder if I really deserve them.

But. When I'm really quiet.  When I take the time to be silent and go into my heart and listen for the truth. When I force myself go there and sit, this is what I hear:

Danielle, you beautiful stubborn girl,
Accept these gifts the Universe is giving you.
Open your arms wide and hold your head high.
These are the same seeds you planted along the way.
The ones you nurtured with hard work, love and hope,
And a deep knowing. You know the one.
They are now sprouting through the soil.
Glistening in the sunlight.

Stand in the beauty of your successes.
Ignore the ugly whispers telling you.
You don't deserve this love and support.
Stop giving a damn about what people might say; her again.
Or what they won't say.
Yet another thing to celebrate.
Stop trying to convince yourself that you deserve this.
Because so many other things have broken your heart.
Before.
And since you were a small girl.

The truth is, you deserve this-period.
Everybody deserves to be happy.
(Even you.)
Radiate your JOY.
Celebrate your dreams come true.
Count your Blessings.
Express your gratitude.
Those who cannot celebrate these moments with you.
Do not love you any less, they just don't love themselves enough.
To believe they are capable of reaching for the stars.
Capable of catching one, or two and three.

Stand tall dear girl. 
Skip down the street. Dance under the moon.
Sing your songs.  Let the sun shine on your face and the love fill your heart.
You are worth it. You are worth it. You are worth it.

Keep dreaming BIG and no matter what, don't apologize for your happiness.
For your success. For your dreams coming true in front of you.
And for the dreams you have yet to make true.
You are loved. You are loved. You are loved.
You are so stubbornly loved.
So shine on! Shine on! Shine on!
And keep your arms open.
We're far from done.

BIG LOVE from my heart to yours.